Spirituality in a World of Secularity

In high school I was told going to a secular university would destroy my faith; the only way to pursue a “Christian Life” was to attend a private, Christian college.

In two short years of classes at The Ohio State University, this statement has been proven false time and time again. This secular university has shown to be one of the biggest factors in me placing my faith in Christ.

Because of the opportunities I have been presented with by my campus church and the unrelenting love of God, my life has been radically transformed. I have seen God redeem my past struggles with alcohol and drugs from high school and use them to strengthen my relationship with Him. I have seen God show me unimaginable affection through moments of intense anxiety. I have seen God intervene in the negative path my life was taking. I have seen my life, and the lives of others changed through faith in Jesus.

And it has been incredible. 

My secular university has privileged me to have experiences like no other. The diversity on this campus amazes me day to day. The opportunities for advancement seem unending. The staff and faculty here genuinely care for the students. And my secular university has given me the chance to know my Savior, and to know Him intimately.

When coming to Ohio State, I did not know what to expect from it. I wasn’t sure how I would handle the idea of being at a party school or how I was going to survive starting out in an honors engineering program. I had no clue how college would be, but I am beyond grateful that I chose OSU.

When secularity seems to be all we see, it is so hard to embrace spirituality. But God calls us to be bold in the truth of the Gospel, to share all that He has commanded of us, and to boast in Christ. And that is what I aim to do.

Lord, I pray that though we endure challenges daily and we fear how others perceive our relationship with you that we can have faith to proclaim your Word. I pray that you would break down these barriers that we face and that you would instill in us courage and boldness. Thank you for this school. Thank you for the people who you have placed in my life. Thank you for the ability to worship you openly. Thank you for saving me. In your name I pray. Amen.

“Be on your guard; stand firm in the faith; be courageous; be strong.” 1 Corinthians 16: 13.






Heart Work/ Hard Work

I am in a trying season of life right now. I am consumed by my anxiety and I am struggling to manage my time well. I am learning how to work in a ministry setting, and honestly, I am not prioritizing time with God and because of this I am feeling disconnected.

I am lacking the engagement that I need with myself. I am not diving into my heart problems. I am cleaning the outside of my cup and not the inside–I act as if my spiritual life is thriving, but in reality, I am a mess.

And that’s okay.

I am constantly learning that heart work is hard work–it’s not fun for me to learn about my brokenness and strive to know God better through it. It’s not fun to analyze my sin struggles. It’s not fun to chase down the lies Satan is telling me. It’s not fun to dig into the deepest insecurities of my heart.

But it is so worth it.

God desires for us to share our struggles with Him. He desires to know us deeply. And I desire to know him.

Working through and processing the messes in my life challenges me and stretches my faith, but through that God always meets me where I am and guides me and loves me perfectly.

This is my public declaration that I am not perfect. Not by a long shot. My “spirituality” is not heightened because I am working as a missionary intern this summer.  I am weak. But God’s power is made perfect in my weakness.

God, please soften my heart. Show me the changes that need to be made. Show me the brokenness that I don’t let myself be aware of. I pray that you would lead me to engage with my brokenness, and allow me to grow personally so that I may love others and you better. 

Trials come and go and vary, but the Lord is always constant.


I am Sent

Today I sat beside my parents at a church service.

Today I submitted an application to intern at H2O church.

Today, God moved.

I didn’t grow up going to church, in fact I couldn’t even tell you a time that I was in a church besides a few weddings. So trust me when I say, today was weird. I never thought in a million years that I would be interested in ministry or that my parents would start going to church. But, here I am, a sophomore in college who has been fully following Christ for almost a year and is seeing God move in incredible ways.

After months of extensive and unanswered prayers, I finally felt the call to apply to intern with my church at Ohio State. The application process was a little hectic, and I was forced to write down quite a few of my sin struggles from the past few years of my life. And even though this brought up so many insecurities that I still struggle with to this day, I could not be more thankful for this application. I am already seeing God work through this and I cannot wait to see what He does in the lives of other college students in years to come.

As for my parents; I got a call from my dad this past Saturday night asking me if I wanted to go to church with them tonight. I never imagined this happening, since I went to church alone in high school and religion was never a conversation topic in my home. But, needless to say, I was extremely excited to join them. I have been obsessively praying that my parents would find some interest in Christianity over the past year, and now they are going to church and getting to experience the fullness of God’s love and compassion.

God is on the move.

The great commission says:

18 And Jesus came and said to them, “All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. 19 Go therefore and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, 20 teaching them to observe all that I have commanded you. And behold, I am with you always, to the end of the age.” Matthew 28: 18-20, ESV.

We are called to go out into the world and share the Gospel with all nations, and even if my “out into the world” is Ohio State’s campus, I am rejoicing in the fact that I get to spread the Good News with everyone I can, and I am not ashamed of the fact that I am being Sent. I praise God for the opportunities He has presented me in such a short period of time, and to this I say “Send me, Here I go.”